The Unshakable Self
What if there was a world in which you could feel confident about every decision you made?
What if your conflicting thoughts had little or no effect on how you moved through the world?
What if doubt and regret were something you seldom considered, if at all?
What if this false self, the imposter, was someone else's problem?
All of this is possible, and it is called the unshakable self.
I'm sure you are asking right now what F*$#! does that even mean? For most of us, this is so far from any conceivable reality you might stop reading — but I hope you don't.
Most of the time, if we are being honest, our "self" feels very shaky. It can hardly stay with one thought or feeling for more than a few mins. We are literally a scroll away from our next thought or feeling about who we should be and what we should want. Let's call this "the fickle self."
This fickle self is an actual epidemic. The good news, I guess, is we are not alone. We are all following the person in front of us who is following the person in front of them. Maybe we all just bang into one another at one point unless we get the courage to jump off the crazy train.
There really is a way out if you want to take it. Or a way in.
That's the thing; it's all about going in. We are all facing the wrong direction, sending our beautiful life force out instead of in. Then we wonder why we constantly feel depleted; we are literally starving our "SELF."
Let me make this a little more user-friendly. There is a you beyond your thoughts that is the real you. The "you" when there are no thoughts. Your infinite self, your unshakable self. I understand, this "infinite self" stuff might sound corny or incredibly annoying. I would always skip over these spiritual blah blah words until I simply couldn't live the way I was living anymore and decided to look deeper.
I was living my life following the next person, thinking they must have the answer. They seem bright, they look happy, hell, they even look rich. When I took that deeper look, I discovered they were none of these things. Not for real. It was just a house of cards.
One day I was in a world of pain -- some of the pain I was in I didn't even know about until it stopped. I believed I needed to control everything; if I stopped, everything would fall apart. I was pushing so hard into the outer world that my inner world was utterly impoverished.
Looking back, I have this image of me running but in no clear direction. Not away or toward anything, simply running. Then one day, all I can say is it felt like I popped, and it all stopped.
The voices in my head stopped yelling at me to try harder, to do more, to be more.
For the first time, I could see how ridiculous that thought was; To be something other than myself. Who would I be, then? Who was I trying to be that seemed better than who I already was?
Suddenly this deep gratitude flooded my body. It wasn't like my gratitude practice, where I dutifully reminded myself that I should be grateful for this or that even if I wasn't. This was very different. It was an incredible feeling that filled me, kept coming, and had no real end. Along with it came a deep, deep peace.
What wasn't there were the thoughts; without them, there was also no judgment, only peace and contentment. I realized that every single thought in my head was a judgment, some positive and others not, but they were a part of me incessantly commentating on any and all of my experiences.
I wasn't "living" at all; I was both a bystander and critic of my own life.
None of the judgment I felt was coming from anywhere other than inside me. I could only see that when it stopped. Nothing had fallen apart at all. Life felt truly abundant and so free.
Instantly I realized that every little and big thing was a gift. Even the bad stuff was there to serve me if I could sit back and receive. Open up and take it all in; all I needed would come to me. It was all part of a design I didn't have to create but instead show up for. It was waiting for me.
And this was what nourished my unshakable self.
I didn't have to study more or practice harder. I was like the world wide web. I had all the information I was willing to be present for. Anything I decided to apply my energy to was not a job or a task but an experience I got to have. All I had to do was point my energy toward it and receive.
Of course, the thoughts come and go. The old, worn-out me shows up from time to time. What is different now is I no longer believe this is how it's meant to be. She is just an old habit. When I find myself getting caught up, I go outside, look at the sun, and remember that this life is a beautiful gift that I get to experience.
Are you ready to take a journey inside to begin discovering your unshakable self?
Join me every month for the Unshakable Self Yoga & Meditation Workshop as we dive deeper, peel back the layers, and unveil your true self.
We will take the sometimes tough but always worth it road inward as we align the body and mind, creating a clearer path inward. Together we will connect with the tranquil self as we move through the layers of who we think we are and begin releasing stress, worry, and doubt. Leaving us open to a deeper understanding of how to move, breathe and live.
We will begin with a Loving You Yoga gentle flow and some deep stretching,
Then we use the breath to calm the system
I will lead you through a divine savasana.
This will be followed by a short teaching and a guided meditation.
There will be time at the end for a group discussion for those who wish to participate.
All levels are welcome.
